Wednesday, August 15

OUTSIDE WAS LEFT THE REASON


the way I see it, the
Universe can not have an inside or an outside

it’s one
There is nothing outside, so there can be no inside

that being said, why
Should I have an inside or an outside?

I am a part of the whole: Neither
Inside nor outside

“I is a thin
Membrane,” wrote famous philosopher Cho de Pod’h

“porous, fragile, and
Temporary,”

“necessary to life, but
Nullified by love.”

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[Picture: Outside was left the reason for everything else to be inside by reading_is_dangerous]

I should be leaving the city in a few hours from now, to go to lake Sevan where I will spend the next two weeks as I do every year since 1999.

I bring my favorite carpets to lie on, a cowboy hat, a pure cotton towel, a synthetic blue swimsuit, a great hammock, a few many books (the same ones as last year), two chess boards, a chess clock, a knife, a moleskin notebook, and a pencil or two.

Be well, my friends!

Tuesday, August 14

YOUR MIND IS A BULLET


today was a special day
It started with me waking up at nine o’clock instead of noon

as you know
I don’t work. I am jobless

and I almost never sleep at night
I go to bed at five or six in the morning

today I woke up earlier because of the heat
August is an oven

I don’t like air conditioning nor fans
So at home, it’s hot

there was another reason why I woke up early, and
That was yesterday’s meal

kebabs, pork chops, pork ribs
Etc.

I don’t usually eat meat
But when it is on the table, I try and eat as much as I can

out of shame or guilt, really
I think of the poor animal

so I clean the
Bones, but

then I can not sleep, because eating meat brings me
Nightmares

this morning’s bad dream went like
This: I was

…going somewhere on a bus, carrying something
Important (I can not remember what that was)

dreams, as everybody knows, have more to do with
Drama than comedy

in the dream, there was a killer who was
Waiting for me at my destination. I knew it

when the bus stopped at a rest area, I
Came down to make a phone call

there was no mobile phone
In that dream. It was a low tech universe

“do I really have to go through this?” I asked somebody on the phone
“Yes.” a voice said

that reminds me of Jesus Christ in the garden of Gethsemane; when he was
asking God if there is a way for “this cup” to be taken from him

I bravely climbed back on the bus
“F*** death!” I heard myself think

did that mean I was willing to fight the assassin or
Was I ready to accept my fate? I do not know

what
what are you supposed to do when you
are about to die, but

to stay calm, and
To enjoy your last moment

.


I knew a man, an Armenian man
A cardiologist who worked in Algeria during the Soviet times

him and I met in 1999
We could speak French together when I didn’t know Russian nor Armenian

a few years ago he died of a
Heart attack

at night, he felt something wrong; he tried to stand up from his
Bed, but he fell down to the floor

his wife found him
She too is a cardiologist

her husband told her: “I
Am dying.”

she started to cry and yell. He told her: “Let
Me die in peace.”

and so he died, that good man
On the floor, in his bedroom, in the silence he wished for

.


this morning, I woke up from my dream
Unharmed

then I checked my emails, the messages and
Comments to the story I wrote the day before

there were interesting words from a friend; I like her observations
Very much

next I tried to write a poem, but
My words did not come out the way I wanted them to

so I turned to
Finger painting on the computer

by the time the new “artwork” was ready, my friend, the one I
Just spoke about, she had sent me a new message

“something happened that requires my
Full attention.” she wrote

with that she left
After she closed her blog

“how serious a person she is.” I thought
If she hesitated, her hesitation didn’t last long

she could be the president of any country with that
Quick mind of hers (seriously)

unfortunately for us, her friends, her sudden closing left us
A bit worried for her

“Good luck!” I wrote to her
“Come back when you can.”

.


it was getting hotter and hotter when I decided to
Get out, and go to sit somewhere

I took a book with me, a
Selection of poems by Henri Michaud

here are a few words
Excuse me for the clumsy translation:

TO ACT, I COME

Pushing open that door in you, I came in
To act, I come

I am here
I give you my support

You are not abandoned anymore
You are not in difficulty anymore

Ropes untied, your difficulties fall down
The nightmare from where you came back, stunned, is no longer

I give you my support

With me, you put
Your foot on the first step of the endless stairway
That takes you
That takes you up
That accomplishes you

I calm you down
I make ponds of peace in you
[…]

.


I live on the fourth floor of an apartment building located on the city’s
Main street

this afternoon, when I came down I noticed a flying gly
“How odd.” I thought,
“here, at this time of the day.”

then I saw something
On the first floor, on the first step: Somebody’s crap

“shit!” I thought
Now that’s going to stay there until God knows when

because who is going to pick that up, and clean the place?
Nobody

except me, maybe
If I can muster the courage

not that human crap is so hard to deal with
It stinks, that’s all there is about it

of course, it is a message
From somebody to somebody else

not to me
That’s for sure

I don’t exist here
I am just the weirdo from the fourth floor, who doesn’t work

whatever!
That crap was there. I left it there

I went to my favorite place. It’s an outdoor café
Where the waitresses smile to me

there somebody I know saw me. A
Writer. He owes me a hundred euros

“shame on me.” he said
“Don’t worry.” I told him

what’s to do?
We spent three hours there

he gave me a CD, a
Recording of Charles Bukowski reading a few poems

I came home with it. The
Crap was still there in the staircase

after I got home, I
Removed my shoes, and put that CD on

it has music on it. Music in the background:
Rossini, Haendel, Wagner, Bach, Albinoni, Mozart, Vivaldi

that’s all good music, super! but
What a bad idea! Because what is that CD for?

today, for
The first time, I heard Charles Bukowski’s voice

.



if you shoot yourself in the head, the last thing that goes through

Your mind is a bullet


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[Picture: A woman from the Hello tribe by reading_is_dangerous]

Sunday, August 12

SWEET AND JUICY PINEAPPLE


“Sui,” Stringhetta called.
That was the first name of Mr. Oteh, if you don’t know

the man was looking at the desert around them
The place was rocky, but there was more than enough dirt for the winds to pick up

once in a while there would come a black storm
That could last for days and even weeks

“Sui,” Stringhetta called again
She was absolutely naked and beautiful

“there is going to be a storm.” Mr. Oteh said
“A big one.”

“I love storms.” Stringhetta said
“Even if that means staying inside for two weeks.”

“you could go back to the city, if you wanted to.” Mr. Oteh said
“But you’d have to leave right now.”

“nah!” Stringhetta exclaimed. She liked it there, in
The Electric desert

they lived in a massive stone building that used to be a
Temple, the so-called Reservoir temple

it was about thirty yards high, thirty meters, with only one funny door, and in the
Basement was a hole that lead to unknown deeps

“we could explore what’s
Down below.” Stringhetta said

“down there is cold and dangerous.” Mr. Oteh said, “Besides, I
can already tell you what’s down there.”

“what is down there?” Stringhetta asked
“A few spiders and the flies they feed on; the flies feed on the
Spiders’ shit.
” Mr. Oteh said. Nothing interesting there

further down, it’s full of things impossible to look at, and
further down, it’s monsters’ country, and we don’t want to go there

not even me.” said Mr. Oteh
“I’d like to see a few monsters or things impossible to look at.” Stringhetta said

“no way.” Mr. Oteh said with a sigh
“Hmm.” Stringhetta said

“this is so ordinary,” Mr. Oteh said. “There is dangerous hole, and
We shouldn’t go, but the idea of it got into your mind.”

“well,” said Stringhetta, “we live here.
Above them, those monsters.”

“yes, but you know why.” Mr. Oteh said
“I know why.” the young woman said

“pick a chair, and burn it.” Mr. Oteh said
“No, thank you. That is your trick.” Stringhetta said

the storm
Was gathering. . .

“you are milk, warm, and
Mixed with water, cold, from the spring.” Mr. Oteh said

hmm, no, Stringhetta said
Rose water for the traveler on a long journey

no. NO! But please try again, Stringhetta said with a smile
You are a nail

brand new, that just fell off a kind of truckaplane
You fell down to the ground, in the grass, among pretty flowers

the nail is new? Stringhetta asked
No rust on it?

not a speck, not yet, Mr. Oteh said
You found it. You stepped on it. Your foot bleeds. Now what do you do?

-I lick the wound, and I keep the nail to etch some short poems
On an old stone

you are the old stone: Mr. Feldspath!
Thank you.” Mr. Oteh said

“we should go fishing them red flying trouts .” he said
“We have about an hour.”

“nah!” the young woman said
“Do
you
like
this?” she asked, showing off her

“yes, very much.” Mr. Oteh said
“Imagine…” Stringhetta said

“imagine I wrote something by removing words from a sentence
Instead of building new sentences, she said

you could scrape off words from the pages of an existing
Text, Mr. Oteh said

it’s been done before
Have you considered trying it yourself?

I did that to a Bible until there was only one word left
And that word was?

blood
Really?

no, but that’s the word I picked at random as I was considering it
You picked the word “blood” at random in the Bible?

no, in the Oxford Advanced Learner’s dictionary
So what is blood?” Mr. Oteh asked

“your life.” Stringhetta answered. “A sort of holy plane for your
Soul.

–we have no soul, but your mind is a spring, Mr. Oteh said
I am your soul, but you are a sweet and juicy pineapple growing in the desert

–wow! look at this black cloud coming over here
I wonder why there is never a spherical cloud.” Stringhetta said

“in your mind, there is.” Mr. Oteh said
“Tell me,” Stringhetta said, “where does outside yourself begins?

where does outside yourself
Begins?

outside your skin?

Your flesh?

is your inside
Not outside of something else

outside of me, for instance
Or is that only another illusion

what if I could show you that inside yourself is nothing different
Than inside a pebble, inside a stone. Feldspath!


what of our thoughts? Mr. Oteh asked
Mere stuff that bumps into itself over and over

like a fly
Can not see a pane of glass

like a bird
Can hear is own singing


we should get a nightingale or two, Mr. Oteh said
Why not a few common snipes and a mini swamp?

that would look great in the middle of the desert
A desert now, a jungle tomorrow

not here, not this one, not this desert, said Mr. Oteh
When a flower asks: “What is a flower?” it asks that question with its
Flower body, and the answer comes in the shape of more flowers

what is a word?
You need words to define what words are

and thoughts to think of thoughts, Mr. Oteh said
And a universe to find out what it’s good for

and you need clothes to protect you from the sun
Unless you are an imaginary person living under an imaginary sun

–now let’s go inside and close that funny door.” Mr. Oteh said
Yes, indeed, Mr. Feldspath.” Stringhetta said

later came the storm, and it was
Slow

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[Picture: Mr. Oteh and Stringhetta by reading_is_dangerous]

Note to myself: Tell more about the door.

Saturday, August 11

WHAT IS A TREE?


there is a pepper ant on your belly
“I shouldn’t be here,” the pepper ant thinks
“You shouldn’t be there,” you tell the pepper ant

both you and the little being fully agree one with the other
Nevertheless the pepper ant dies
Crushed by your lovely fingers


”what is a poem?” Mr. Oteh asked
“A poem is an axe.” Stringhetta answered. “Each
Word is a chop. If you work well, the tree quickly comes down.”

“what is a tree?” Mr. Oteh asked
“A tree is a tall plant that can live a long time.” Stringhetta answered

“chop-chop.” Mr. Oteh said
“Come
Here.” Stringhetta said

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[Picture: The pepper ant by reading_is_dangerous]

THE 'FIVE MINUTES' POEM

Stringhetta walked into the room where Mr. Oteh was
Painting. “I wrote a bunch of ‘five minutes’ poems for you.” she said

“Read.” he said
“One of them.” she said


AROUND

around you
Around what was of you
Around what was around of you

around the two of us, but
That was a long time ago

far, far from here
Here, today

I saw you, but
You didn’t see me

that was earlier, before you
Went to sleep

around you
around your hopes
around what is left of me, in you

how many poems are there that deal with what’s inside
In...
In your eyes
In your thoughts
In your heart
In your dreams
In your hands
In your nights
In you

now what about: What’s
around, around
you?



“yes, what is around?” Mr. Oteh said
“What’s this?” Stringhetta asked, looking at the painting

“A ‘five minutes’ painting.
It reminds me of that awful rice that was ready in five minutes
Thank you, you are so kind
Ha! ha! ha! Are we tired?
A little bit
Is it because of those flying red fish?
Maybe
And who is that?
Another part of me
There are so many of you.”

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[Picture: A
Five Minutes Painting by reading_is_dangerous]

Friday, August 10

GRASS


I always heard that
Dropping atomic bombs on two
Japanese cities in 1945 helped put an
End to World War II, and
saved countless lives

but I was still a young boy when
I asked myself: Why cities? and why two?

why didn’t they drop the bombs on a little “empty” island, an
Empty field? They could have invited Japanese officials to witness the event

yesterday I read:

Truman defended his decision to drop the atomic bombs on civilians […] despite the objections of top military figures, including Gen. Dwight Eisenhower, who contended that the war would end quickly without dropping the bomb.

[…]

His White House was fully informed that the Japanese were on the verge of collapse. -The Terror America Wrought by Robert Scheer, August 8, 2007


the two bombs killed 370,000 people. In
My opinion, it really was a message delivered to the
Whole world, and it meant: “SEE! WE ARE
CRAZY ENOUGH TO DO THAT.”

I think of gangsters when they kill each other in imaginative
Ways, to frighten the competition, to terrorize them

but let’s come back to the “it helped stop the war” explanation, and
Consider this:

much like Japan was losing the war in the Pacific, the
US army is now losing the war in Iraq

so should the Iraqi resistance commanders
Detonate nuclear bombs in two enemy cities to save lives by
Forcing a quick American retreat?

what about Los Angeles (it could be seen as a propaganda center)
Or Beijing (are the Chinese not helping to finance the war?)

but do bombs ever put an end to wars? After
All, didn’t the so-called Second World War continued itself in
Korea, in Vietnam, in Africa, in South America… moving on to Afghanistan, to
The Balkans, to the Persian Gulf…

what is my point? That we
Shouldn’t delude ourselves. Two
Atomic bombs were not dropped on Hiroshima and Nagasaki to
Put an end to the war

no bomb can ever put an end to war. That’s
Not what bombs are good for

today, the US army uses ammunitions made with depleted uranium
“Depleted” might sound like “okay, weak stuff”, but who knows? It is radio-
active, and its half-
life is more than four BILLION years

we should order
ORDER our servant leaders in all countries to destroy all nuclear bombs and
Ammunition, before the stupid ones turn the whole planet into a empty field

empty of grass, even

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[Picture: The Empty Field by reading_is_dangerous]

THE BLUE SWIMSUIT

today I sat on a beach, at lake Sevan
And there I watched a big man who was stretching

the color of his back was the same color as that of the
Distant cliff behind him

he had a red
Chair that was a bit too little for him to sit on, awkward (like these lines of mine)



I did not remember (until later tonight) that August 9 was the day when an
Atomic bomb was dropped on the city of Nagasaki

but for some reason I was thinking of nuclear weapons.
I thought:

that if a virus suddenly wiped off most of us, there
Probably wouldn’t be left anybody able to deactivate our bombs

and the Earth would be stuck with them like a
Man with a slipped disc



I bet you if we asked everybody in the world whether or not we should
Get rid of all nuclear bombs, then we’d hear a big YES

so why
Are we not doing that?

and how come a few men, a few hundred men, are
Allowed to take decisions on such essential matters

most of those men who decided to build those bombs are old
Or they died a long time ago. Damn them!



imagine those stupid bombs (I don’t call them weapons) would
Explode: Boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, etc.

our planet would keep on orbiting around the sun, but
It would be silent here like on the moon

without us
Without our questions, our god damn questions



there
There on the hill top are two old churches

Christianity isn’t worth much, if we consider the crews who DARED
Drop those bombs on Hiroshima and Nagasaki

but inside those two little buildings, the
Air is cool even in the summer under the full fury of the sun



there
There on the beach, I was looking at the wavelets

I like the way they
Run along the shore, never stopping

there, there on the beach, there was
really no one, but
Me and an imaginary man whom I forced to stretch in silence



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[Picture: Suntan lotion! by reading_is_dangerous]

Note for me: You forgot to say a word about the blue swimsuit.

Wednesday, August 8

STRINGHETTA INTERVIEWS MR. OTEH

what is your name?
Mr. Oteh

what is your real name?
Sui mu Ote’h

where do you come from?
From across the Sea of Saints. I won’t tell you more about it, not today

job?
None

hobby?
Computer finger painting

why do you paint?
To look at what I couldn’t see otherwise

do you sell your art?
Who would buy it? It’s all digital, easy to reproduce

what if you tried selling an autographed print?
The value would be next to zero

so how do we live?
There is still some money left in the treasure chest

do you love me?
I do

if you could be any part of me, which one would it be?
Your green heart. And you?

your long hands, but I’m the one asking questions at the moment
Please go on

thank you. What is imagination?
Well, there is imagination A and there is imagination B

you are using imagination A when you join
A man’s head, arms, and upper body with a horse’s body and legs

you are using imagination B when you try
To discover knowledge otherwise impossible to get

If you join two randomly chosen words with a story, what are you doing?
Using imagination A

If I am using bread to figure out what Pango wants, what am I doing?
Using imagination B

thankayou. Would you say: Imaginary worlds run perpendicular to reality?
No

do you really believe that time is perpendicular to eternity?
Yes

what would love be perpendicular to?
I have an idea or two about it, but let’s see what your readers will say

thankayou. You can now ask me a question, if you will
I sure will, thankayou. Why are you fully clothed today?

Oh! When will I get that special sunrise frontlet you promised me some time ago?
Very soon. This morning I got these imaginary flowers for you

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[Picture: Green heart by reading_is_dangerous]

WHAT HAPPENS WHEN I DRINK


do you need your
Mind? Maybe you don’t

what is your mind good for--
Who says you use it better than I would?

give me your mind
At first, I’ll put it in a tea pot

with some tea leaves and boiling water
We’ll see what happens when I drink

your
Mind

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[Picture: Why should I sleep? by reading_is_dangerous]

Monday, August 6

LITTLE NARWALLE


The Merry-Go-Round turned slowly because Constance, the mule that was moving it, tried to follow the conversation of its owner, old Mr. Glaärneck, with Mr. Mouton, the young hot-dog vendor who every day came by the carousel, pushing his cart. “Trains,” Mouton said, “could never become popular, in this country, because they require too much public invesssment. Well,” Glaärneck said, “what makes you believe that a railroad requires more public investment than a god damn highway?” The conversation ended there because Glaärneck’s only patron that morning, a little girl riding a yellow-painted wooden catamount, had fallen down her mount, and off the platform of the carousel. She was screaming when a small bird with a long beak fell from the sky, right next to her, and dead!

Her screaming stopped abruptly when the girl saw the bird, not because it was dead, but because it had been carrying an envelope with its beak. On it was
written something the child, at seven years old, could readily read: her own name, Narwalle. Little Narwalle picked up the envelope, and quickly stood up. Soon her mother was there with old Mr. Glaärneck and young Mr. Mouton. “Is she hurt, my poor darling?” the woman asked the hot-dog vendor. “What is this dead bird doing here?” Mouton asked the carousel owner. “What is that name written on your envelope?” Glaärneck asked the child. Little Narwalle said that was her name, and that the bird brought it. “Let’s see what’s inside.” the carousel owner said. The child opened the envelope. Inside was a single square of yellow Washi with only this one sentence written on it:

“She saw him light a cigarette though her office window and wondered if he could see inside her building too.” little Narwalle read, albeit with difficulty. “How weird,” her mother said, “because yesterday, that situation happened to me.
Did you write this letter?” Mouton asked. “Of course, not!” the woman answered. “Who was the man whom you saw lighting a cigarette?” Glaärneck asked her. “I don’t know him,” the woman said, “but his skin was blue, and it looked like jello.” A blue jelloman? “His name is Pango.” Glaärneck said, and he turned to find the dead bird, but its body was gone. “What is happening?” the woman asked. I will tell you in a few minutes.” the carousel owner told her.

“Do you have to let it linger?” the woman said. “What?” Mouton asked. “I am afraid Pango might be wanting something from you or from your daughter.” Glaärneck said. “What?” the woman asked. “What?” Mouton repeated. “Give me a hot-dog and a bottle of water.” the carousel owner asked the young man. “What?” Mouton asked again. “JUST DO IT!” Glaärneck shouted, but he was also laughing. The young man ran to his cart, then he came back pushing it. “Mustard or ketchup?” he asked. “Give me only a bread roll and one of your transparent plastic cups filled with water,
please.” Glaärneck answered, then he said: “Panisomancy is the ancient art of discovering hidden knowledge using bread.” He took a tiny piece off the bread roll, then he dropped it in the plastic cup handed to him by Mouton. “Let’s see what this tells us.” the carousel owner said. The crumb simply floated. “Maybe that piece was too tiny?” Glaärneck said.

He dropped another piece of bread into the water. This time, the crumb sunk to the bottom of the cup where it assumed a bloated form; its irregular shape was easy to recognize. “A tooth!” everyone exclaimed. “A tooth! A tooth!” repeated little Narwalle who said: “Before falling down the yellow cat, I felt I had a shaky tooth.” Everybody looked at the shaky tooth. “Is that what Pango wants?” the girl asked. “Yes, my poor darling.” her mother said. “Who is Pango?” Mouton asked. “Someone who doesn’t like to be spied on.” Glaärneck answered, and he looked at the woman. She blushed, then she said: “The bird! the bird!” The dead bird was back. It seemed very much alive and well; it was now standing near little Narwalle. “That’s a common snipe. I wonder what it
s doing here, in town.” Mouton said. “It’s waiting.” Glaärneck said, then he turned to the child. “If only there were some other way…” said the girl, then she violently shook her tooth until it came off. She gave it to the bird; the animal caught it with its long beak, then it flew away. “Can I ride the yellow cat again?” asked little Narwalle. “Anytime you want.” said a voice. That was Constance, the mule!

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[Picture:
A sketch for Fizzy, a friend of Narwalle’s mother by reading_is_dangerous]

Thursday, August 2

WHEN IS WHAT OR WHAT IS WHEN







Earlier now was later.

Now later will be earlier.





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[Picture: The Moon caught a cold by reading_is_dangerous]

BY-PRODUCTS







This sentence will try and make you remember your first kiss.

Did it work?
a) the above sentence b) the kiss





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[Picture: Love molecules in human brain (arrows) and byproducts (a) by reading_is_dangerous]

NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNOTT






This sentence is made of one hundred percent recycled words.

This sentence is nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnott (made of 100% recycled words).





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[Picture: Frankie tells the king everything about recycling by reading_is_dangerous]

INMOVITOR SICYBLECLE






The word ‘terrorist’ is trying to hide in this sentence.

Can you see it?




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[Picture : The invisible motorcycle by reading_is_dangerous]